Balance or the lack thereof

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This post cut into me. It opened me up and allowed me to acknowledge what I’ve been trying to put into words.

The everyday routine tasks threaten to make me feel like I’m drowning. I’m never caught up yet I feel any extra quality time with my family is lacking. Parts of me are torn in different directions so not one person or task is fully getting all of me. I know that I'm surrounded by so so many blessings but in this season I feel so worn. I’m in dire need of finding balance in my life and a way to nourish my soul because this mama is running on fumes. 

I needed to express these thoughts out loud because ultimately, I know I'm not alone in these feelings. 

So share with me please, how do you find balance?

  

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Parenting or Life as we know it

I've said it before and I still stand by it. Parenting is hard. It's messy and there's no user's manual to offer instructions. Sure, there's plenty of parenting books, but honestly, you have to find what works best for your family because nothing is ever as cut and dry as a book might suggest in this crazy adventure.

25 months is the difference between Mason and Hadley. Our household can be chaotic that's for sure. Mason is a good big brother. He has his moments where he gets frustrated when I can't just lay the baby down to help him but for the most part he will hug her or show concern when she is crying. He will bring her paci or blanket to her as well. 

Having two under the age of 2 is teaching me the art of multitasking, patience and flexibility. It's tough at times, I feel myself going in multiple directions and wonder if I have anymore to give. At times I have to step away, to take a deep breath and remember that these are only seasons that come and go. Some nights I fall into bed exhausted from the day, but ultimately I do find the strength to keep going because that's motherhood is all about. Discovering that you have more strength built up then you could ever imagine, to keep going, to keep loving on your family. 

My house is a wreck most of the time, the laundry pile is never ending and I feel like i'm running in circles but then I see this picture...

and my heart is full. This life is rewarding. I just look at my two, amazed that my body nurtured them. Amazed that they are intertwined in my life and that I'm responsible for their well being and for building their little characters. Intimidating that's for sure and I'm bound to make mistakes along the way but that's how life is, it's how we learn and grow.